In 2015 I found myself in a position where I had absolutely no clarity in my life about anything. I hit a point of complete overwhelm physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually – my rock bottom. My life was busy, I had 4 children who were needing a mother, a family who wanted their daughter, sister, sister-in law to be reliable, present, clear sighted and emotionally available. I was none of these. My life was a mess both externally and internally.
So, from my rock bottom began my journey of finding clarity for myself and for my family. This entailed action, lots, and lots of different actions! Until I found some clarity on who I was, how I felt, what boundaries I needed, finding a power greater than myself that I could come to trust and rely on – I was going to be stuck where I was.
“The definition of insanity is doing the same actions over and over and expecting a different result”
The very first action was accepting that I was in a place I did not want to be and so therefore I had to put my hand up and ask for help. This was not easy. I realised that I could no longer carry the weight of other people’s expectations or the responsibility of their happiness, I wanted my own happiness and this meant I had to take responsibility for my actions and inactions. I realised that I wanted to be at peace with myself and to be able to do that I needed clarity. I practiced listening, loving, and setting boundaries. I got curious – which is the will to learn, experience and then grow.
I do not walk this journey of healing by myself – I have help. This help comes in various forms, from support groups, counsellors, my higher power, energy healers to people who had walked the path ahead of me and who were willing to walk alongside me as I heal and many more. Early on, I had the gift of desperation and was willing to be open minded to explore and find the clarity I so desperately sought.
As I healed on my journey, I found myself helping others to find their clarity. Through my own experiences – I am able to share the tools, knowledge and actions that were so wisely passed onto me from others through their own experiences.
I am on a journey, there is no end in sight and that I am so excited about that. I am excited to share this with you on your journey. Let’s find clarity together – you do not have to do this on your own.
love Benita x